Very sorry for your loss. We lost our Lady over 5 years ago. We think of her every day. It still hurts!
I'm very sorry to hear this. You are not acting like a wimp so don't even worry about that. People get very attached to their pets. They become part of the family.
Yeah man, nothing to be embarrassed about, we thought we were losing our 18year old girl recently, but she bounced back, for now.